i look up at him and feel my heart breaking.
"peeta....its me katniss your wife" i say tears filling my eyes and he takes a step away from me and shakes his head.
"no i dont have a wife and my names not peeta its austin im not even married you must have me confused with someone else" he says looking at me and i shake my head "well i will talk to you later katniss" he waves and turns to walk away
"no!" i say and grab his hand and pull him back "ask me anything about you i can answer anything about you because your my husband please dont leave me again you know how hard these past weeks have been without you the kids our five year old daughter lily and our two year old son jayden remember them? they love you and miss you i love you and miss you please peeta believe me!" i say tears falling down my cheeks and he hugs me tightly.
"im sorry im not who you think i am but i will be here to help you but im not this peeta you claim me to be im sorry" he looks at me and wipes away my tears. i look up at him and sighs 'ive lost my husband...' i think. he smiles at me and i force a pretty believable smile back.
"so this meeting for all bakery managers where is it" i ask trying to change the subject he looks at me and point to the other side of the lobby.
"third door on your right kat" he says and i nod and quickly walk away trying hard to hide the tears that are filling my eyes 'haymitch and peeta are the only ones who ever called me that' i think. 
 (peeta's point of veiw)
i watch her walk away quickly and turn into the room i told her to and sigh 'shes nice but im not married my name isnt even peeta!'. i look back over to where she is and i wonder most of my past is a mystery to me if this girl knows me maybe, just maybe, i can figure out who i am.
(katniss's point of veiw)
i sigh and look around the room im the only girl here 'great...' i say in my mind. 'could this day get any worse! my husband doesnt even know me! i am in a room full of guys im never gonna hear the end of these males flirting with me! and im pregnant!' im staring at the ground and im being shaken from my thoughts.
"hey katniss! are you ok? whats wrong you just spaced out there" peeta says and i look around everyone is staring at me and i immediately want to curl up and hide for the rest of the weekend.
"im fine!" i snap and everyone is still staring at me and that sets me off "im fine! stop staring at me!" i basically yell and everyone immediately looks away. someone who im guessing is the board director clears his throat and starts the meeting.
"welcome lady" he says and motions to me and all the guys i dont even look at me. peeta hasnt even looked at me since i exploded at everyone i dont blame him though. "and gentleman" the director finishes with a smile and i roll my eyes. how could somebody be so happy when this day couldnt possibly get any worse. but, sadly i was mistaken the meeting lasted several hours and  we didnt get to go to our rooms til late at night. i didnt even check the time i just had a shower, got changed and crawled into bed. i was asleep before my head hit the pillow. 
(peeta's pov)
i follow katniss out of the meeting and before i get a chance to talk to her she rushes off to her room. i sigh i hope shes ok i never got a answer from her eariler and i wanted to know why she snapped at everyone. we were only worried about her. i slowly walk back to my room stopping to talk to some of the other baker managers. they are impressed with me i have only worked for a short time in the bakery here in district 6 and im already the manager. so after im done talking to everyone i wave good night and walk to my house and have a shower. i crawl under my soft blankets and fall asleep. the next morning i wake up really early and i run to the hotel. i wanted to talk to katniss before the meeting today shes leaving in a day or two and i dont know when im gonna see her again. if i will ever see her again. when i get there i walk to her room and i knock on the door i hear shuffling and the latch coming undone before the doors opened i hear her yell.
"whos there!?" she askes and i smile.
"austin" i reply and before i know it the door is opening and shes standing there in a bathrobe.
"austin! what are you doing here so early?" she askes i can tell shes happy to see me but also suprised.
" i just came to see how you were doing you left in a rush yesterday and you just seemed agaited. are you ok?" i ask and she sighs.
"why dont you come in and i will tell you i dont want anyone knowing yet so i swear to god you tell anyone!-" she starts and i hold up my hand trying not to laugh.
"katniss i wont tell i promise" i tell her and walk into her room and sit on one of the beds she sits on the other and looks at me pulls out her suitcase. she pulls something out of it and hands it to me.
"thats my husband" she says pointing to the man in the picture that could be me "and my kids, lily" she says pointing to a little girl "and jayden" she points to a small boy "thats why i jumped on you yesterday...im sorry i really thought you were my husband as you can see you could be him" i nod.
"is this what you wanted to tell me?" i ask and she shakes her head and takes the picture back.
"no i just wanted to show you that so you knew why but im not myself right now....im pregnant right now and austin i still think you are my husband peeta so this would be your baby" she says and my jaw drops.

i walk into the train that toke me to my first games i walk into the same car where i had my first conversation with peeta where i fell in love with my passed husband. i sit down in the same chair i did 16 years ago and look over someone is sitting in the chair peeta sat in. my heart races and i am filled with hope. did my husband not die in the crash and did he somehow find his way back to me! my eyes fill with tear and i almost jump on the figure sitting in the chair knocking it over.
"PEETA!!!!!!" i shouted before realizing im alone and my mind had played a cruel trick on me. i sigh and stand up i refuse to let the tears fall down my face and onto the floor. so instead i walk to my room place my bag on the floor and climb into the shower after turning on the water i started crying letting my tears mix with the water. i just wanted my husband back thats all i want so my kids are happy again im happy again everyone is happy again. i rest my hands on my flat stomach i want this baby right? i mean i want to be happy this is peetas last gift to me i want it i know i do i love him to much not to have it but, can i take care of 3 kids by myself. i sure hope so because im gonna try! not only for me but for peeta and the baby. i get out of the shower and get into some pajamas and i walk to my bed curl up arms wrapped around my baby and i cry myself to sleep.
THE NEXT DAY
i get up early we are only about an hour away from district 6 so i get dressed in a simple green shirt and pants and go to eat breakfast. i hear someone walk up behind me.
"morning katniss" the voice says i reconize this voice but refuse to look at who it was it had the rich capitol accent on it,
"morning" i reply coldly not feeling like talking to anyone and behind me i hear the person laugh i turn around sharply "what is-cinna!" i yell "your alive!!!!" i jump from my seat and hug him "i thought you died all those years ago" i feel his arms tighten around me.
"i know katniss and im sorry for doing that to you" he says quietly and i shake my head.
"no cinna it wasnt your fault but how did you get here how did you find me again?" i ask frantically and he smiles
"why dont we sit katniss and i will tell you the story" he tells me and i cant stop smiling and sit down in a chair.
"so what happened cinna?" i ask "tell me everything!" and i hear him chuckle
"you werent this eager before what changed you? are you still with peeta? i can see that happening him bringing out the good in you" he smiles and then looked at me and saw the sad expression on my face "whats wrong?" he asked and i saigh and look at him.
"peeta died" i say my voice barely above a whisper he looks at me sad
"oh katniss im so sorry i didnt know-" he starts and hold up my hand stopping his words.
"its alright cinna please dont go on about how sorry you are" i say tears in my eyes and he sees them and nods
"alright katniss" he says calmly and we feel the train slow down entering district 6 i sigh and stand up 
"sorry cinna i have to go i have a meeting here it was nice talking to you though" i force a smile he nods
"yes you to katniss" he says and i walk out to grab my things and leave the train. i walk to the hotel and check into my room and get settled i check the time, 9:40, i sigh and leave my room and take the elevator down to the main floor and when i get up i bump into a man walking in front of the elevator. i look up.
"sorry" i say "i wasnt watching where i was going" i smile fainly and the man looks at me and suddenly im staring into the blue eyes of my husband. "peeta" i whisper and hug him tightly "oh my god peeta! your alive!!! i thought you died the kids think your dead!" i say tears of joy falling from my face and i feel peeta tense up and push me away. he looks at me his eyes confused and hollow and the next 3 words he says to me will haunt me the rest of my life. he stares staight at me and asks quietly.
"who are you?"
 

i look at him and sigh.
"haymitch what am i gonna do" i ask softly and i hear him sigh.
"sweetheart.....you know what you have to do tell them that you have to leave and-" i cut him off
"NO!" i snap "im not telling them not yet they will think i want to leave them to that i wont come back like peeta did!" i look down almost immediatly and i hear the scraping of a chair dragging against the floor and suddenly haymitch is beside me breathing down my neck.
"ok katniss" i flinch when he calls me katniss because it means hes either annoyed or very angry with me but right now i dont care "i get it ur sad and nothing has been going right since peeta died but u seriously gotta stop this all about me attuitde because its not all about u a lot of people r hurting because peeta is dead! what about me? huh?! peeta was like my son but u dont see me moping around all day! katniss u gotta think what about ur kids!? they r hurting too! so sweetheart i would tell them tomorrow or im gonna tell them tomorrow ok!?" he almost yells at me and i nod slowly tears filling my eyes. those words hurt they were like a slap in the face but we both know i needed it "good!" i hear him say sternly and i listen as he leaves the house and once i hear the door slam i lean my head on the table and burst into tears. after a few minutes of crying i wipe away my tears and walk upstairs to my room. i lay in my bed thinking on how im gonna tell my kids i have to leave in a week.
ONE WEEK LATER......
im at the train station hugging my childern and saying good bye to them promising them i would be back soon. i choose the train because i felt safer and the memories of peeta i cant hide from them forever. i hear a train whistle in the distance and look towards it and sigh trying not to cry im leaving my kids for the first time and i can tell they are scared that i wont come home like their dad. at least i know if i dont come home they have haymitch to take care of them i know they will be safe. i hold them tightly and sigh whispering in there ears.
"i love you guys and im gonna be home in a few days alright?" i look at them and they nod slowly
"but mommy what if-" lily starts and i shake my head
"its not gonna happen lily ok? im coming home if its the last thing i do" i interupt and they nod
"we love you mommy" they say in unison hugging me tightly i hug them back
"i love you too bye..." i say letting them go and they wave at me i stand up and kiss them both "im gonna miss u guys" i tell them and i can see they are both holding back tears they dont want me to leave.
"bye mommy we will miss u too" they say and i walk away to haymitch and he pulls me into a hug.
"take care of them haymitch" i whisper in his ear and he nods.
"you know i will sweetheart u just try to have fun alright?" i nod and he kisses my head "good bye sweetheart see you soon" i smile a little.
"bye haymitch see you soon and the kids" i say and kiss his cheek and hear the train pull up behind me and i start shaking and haymitch just holds me at arms length.
"its ok sweetheart its gonna be ok" he says and i nod and turn towards the train and pick up my bag and wave to everyone.
"bye i will be back soon" i say waving and i step on the train. i set my bag down in the living area and almost faint at what i see.

AUTHORS NOTE: hey guys its me and i am really starting to think no one is reading this....is my story that bad? if it is just tell me i promise it will get better in time! u just have to keep with it but maybe im making the chapters to short......anyways just comment if my story sucks and i will stop writing it or i will try to make it better........well good bye to next week hopefully..... 

i hear the muffled screams of delight coming from my childern. i smile slightly and contuine working when i hear a knock on the door i quickly hide the test in the top desk drawer.
"come in" i say and watch the door open slowly "oh hi vick what are you doing here shouldnt you be baking?" i ask and he nods quickly.
"i should but this came for you and it looked important so i came to drop it off" he hands me an envelope adressed to me and i smile slightly.
"thank you vick was this all" i ask looking at him and i see a smile creep up on his face
"oh yah and congradulations kat hope it turns out like its brother and sister" and he quickly closes the door behind him. i just stare at him in disbelief and it suddenly comes to me 'haymitch told him!' i slam my fists on the desk 'im gonna kill him' i tell myself. i sigh and pick up the letter its addressed to me as manager of the bakery. i quickly open it and stare at it saying there is a mandatory bakers meeting for all district bakery managers. i sigh that means i have to take a hovercraft or a train and i cant take either peeta died in a hovercraft crash and trains bring back to many memories of him. it also means i will have to leave my kids for this meeting and its all weekend long i will have to leave in a week to get there its being held in district 6 and i am already dreading going there. i finally finish all the paperwork and look at the time 9:00!!!! the bakery closed hours ago why didnt anyone come get me! i stand up and quickly walk out lily and jayden need there supper and to be put to bed i run home and walk in.
"hey sweetheart id be quiet the kids are sleeping" i hear coming from the kitchen and walk into there and see haymitch sitting there. its all i can do not to blow up at him.
"you told me you wouldnt tell anyone! you told vick!" i try to stay quiet and he holds up his hands.
"calm down i didnt tell him he kinda figured it out when a full grown man walks into a bakery with a positive pregnancy test and asks to talk to you its kinda self explainatory" he says and i nod
"i guess your right im sorry" i say and sit down at the table "i just got the worst news today"
"whats wrong" he asks looking at me "its not about the baby is it" and i instantly shake my head
"no next week i have to go to a mandatory manager bakery meeting thing" i say looking down "and i dont want to go haymitch" he nods
"i can tell sweetheart but you have to go if its mandatory" he tells me
"well i know that im just terrifed to get on a hovercraft and i will have a mental breakdown if i get on a train" i look down and i feel something grab my hand its haymitch.
"i know sweetheart i know but its gonna be ok" he says "and i will watch the kids while ur gone ok" i sigh and nod
"thank you" i whisper

AUTHORS NOTE: hey guys second chapter this week plz comment on how u like it! :D im trying my best to make it awesome!

we arrive at the bakery and vick has taken over since peeta died baking and everything because i am just hopeless at it. so i just deal with everything else bills and inventory. i go on business trips to other districts every once in a while but i secertly hate them im away from my kids. im the only parent they have left now and secertly im scared to go on these trips thats how peeta died travling between districts. if i suffer the same fate as peeta what will happen to our kids. they are way to young to lose both parents so i try to avoid district travel as much as possible. we walk to the back and see vick.
"morning vick" i smile faintly he looks at me and smiles
"hey katniss how are you and the kids?" he asks pulling me into a hug i hug him back and shrug
"been better i guess and thanks to haymitch i had to tell the kids the truth about peeta" i say sadly "it broke both their hearts" i sigh. vick looks at me sad 
"oh im so sorry katniss" he says "lily and jayden deserved to know though maybe haymitch was doing u a favor?" he says and for a reason out of no where i start crying 'crap' i think 'i forgot i was pregnant...' and before i know it vick is hugging me.
"its ok katniss" he says soothingly "everything will turn out ok i promise" he smiles i nod slowly 
"thanks vick" i force a smile "im gonna go to the back and work on bills and that can u keep an eye on the kids for me?" i ask and he nods.
"of course i can katniss" he says and turns to the kids as i walk into the office. i look at all the paperwork i have to do and sigh.
"just great" i mutter and sit down and start working at it. i hear the bell ring to announce someone entered the store. then i hear muttering and vick saying 'shes in the back' and i start to think who could that be who wants to see me and before i know it i see my mentor haymitch standing there looking at me the positive pregnancy test in his hand. i slap myself stupid me! i left it on the kitchen table where anyone who entered my house could easily find it.
"sweetheart why didnt u tell me?" he asks and i sigh.
"cause i was gonna try and hide it figure out what i was gonna do before i told anyone just please promise me you wont tell anyone" i almost beg and he just smiles
"alright sweetheart just come to me sooner next time alright" he says and puts the test on the desk in front of me "and if u didnt want anyone to know u shouldnt have left it laying around" i just stare at it and nod
"i know haymitch but what am i gonna do im gonna be the single mother of 3 i can barely keep 2 now a third i just cant do it..." i say buring my face in my hands and suddenly i feel haymitchs arms wrap around me.
"its alright sweetheart we will think of something" he tells me and i nod slowly as haymitch releases me.
"alright" i say "ok now i really need to get this done if u dont mind watchung the kids so vick can work that would be great thanks" he smiles and kisses my cheek.
"sure sweetheart" he says and walks out to go entertain the kids.



AUTHORS NOTE: hey guys! i have been trying to update as much as possible but i have work and school and i do have a life so i try when i have free time so plz dont be mad at me i really am trying to get 1-2 chapter a week maybe even 3 a week so plz enjoy and dont forget to comment! i will take suggestions on which way u want the story to go though but i have an idea on which way i want it to go but im open to suggestions!