i look at him and sigh.
"haymitch what am i gonna do" i ask softly and i hear him sigh.
"sweetheart.....you know what you have to do tell them that you have to leave and-" i cut him off
"NO!" i snap "im not telling them not yet they will think i want to leave them to that i wont come back like peeta did!" i look down almost immediatly and i hear the scraping of a chair dragging against the floor and suddenly haymitch is beside me breathing down my neck.
"ok katniss" i flinch when he calls me katniss because it means hes either annoyed or very angry with me but right now i dont care "i get it ur sad and nothing has been going right since peeta died but u seriously gotta stop this all about me attuitde because its not all about u a lot of people r hurting because peeta is dead! what about me? huh?! peeta was like my son but u dont see me moping around all day! katniss u gotta think what about ur kids!? they r hurting too! so sweetheart i would tell them tomorrow or im gonna tell them tomorrow ok!?" he almost yells at me and i nod slowly tears filling my eyes. those words hurt they were like a slap in the face but we both know i needed it "good!" i hear him say sternly and i listen as he leaves the house and once i hear the door slam i lean my head on the table and burst into tears. after a few minutes of crying i wipe away my tears and walk upstairs to my room. i lay in my bed thinking on how im gonna tell my kids i have to leave in a week.
ONE WEEK LATER......
im at the train station hugging my childern and saying good bye to them promising them i would be back soon. i choose the train because i felt safer and the memories of peeta i cant hide from them forever. i hear a train whistle in the distance and look towards it and sigh trying not to cry im leaving my kids for the first time and i can tell they are scared that i wont come home like their dad. at least i know if i dont come home they have haymitch to take care of them i know they will be safe. i hold them tightly and sigh whispering in there ears.
"i love you guys and im gonna be home in a few days alright?" i look at them and they nod slowly
"but mommy what if-" lily starts and i shake my head
"its not gonna happen lily ok? im coming home if its the last thing i do" i interupt and they nod
"we love you mommy" they say in unison hugging me tightly i hug them back
"i love you too bye..." i say letting them go and they wave at me i stand up and kiss them both "im gonna miss u guys" i tell them and i can see they are both holding back tears they dont want me to leave.
"bye mommy we will miss u too" they say and i walk away to haymitch and he pulls me into a hug.
"take care of them haymitch" i whisper in his ear and he nods.
"you know i will sweetheart u just try to have fun alright?" i nod and he kisses my head "good bye sweetheart see you soon" i smile a little.
"bye haymitch see you soon and the kids" i say and kiss his cheek and hear the train pull up behind me and i start shaking and haymitch just holds me at arms length.
"its ok sweetheart its gonna be ok" he says and i nod and turn towards the train and pick up my bag and wave to everyone.
"bye i will be back soon" i say waving and i step on the train. i set my bag down in the living area and almost faint at what i see.
AUTHORS NOTE: hey guys its me and i am really starting to think no one is reading this....is my story that bad? if it is just tell me i promise it will get better in time! u just have to keep with it but maybe im making the chapters to short......anyways just comment if my story sucks and i will stop writing it or i will try to make it better........well good bye to next week hopefully.....
"haymitch what am i gonna do" i ask softly and i hear him sigh.
"sweetheart.....you know what you have to do tell them that you have to leave and-" i cut him off
"NO!" i snap "im not telling them not yet they will think i want to leave them to that i wont come back like peeta did!" i look down almost immediatly and i hear the scraping of a chair dragging against the floor and suddenly haymitch is beside me breathing down my neck.
"ok katniss" i flinch when he calls me katniss because it means hes either annoyed or very angry with me but right now i dont care "i get it ur sad and nothing has been going right since peeta died but u seriously gotta stop this all about me attuitde because its not all about u a lot of people r hurting because peeta is dead! what about me? huh?! peeta was like my son but u dont see me moping around all day! katniss u gotta think what about ur kids!? they r hurting too! so sweetheart i would tell them tomorrow or im gonna tell them tomorrow ok!?" he almost yells at me and i nod slowly tears filling my eyes. those words hurt they were like a slap in the face but we both know i needed it "good!" i hear him say sternly and i listen as he leaves the house and once i hear the door slam i lean my head on the table and burst into tears. after a few minutes of crying i wipe away my tears and walk upstairs to my room. i lay in my bed thinking on how im gonna tell my kids i have to leave in a week.
ONE WEEK LATER......
im at the train station hugging my childern and saying good bye to them promising them i would be back soon. i choose the train because i felt safer and the memories of peeta i cant hide from them forever. i hear a train whistle in the distance and look towards it and sigh trying not to cry im leaving my kids for the first time and i can tell they are scared that i wont come home like their dad. at least i know if i dont come home they have haymitch to take care of them i know they will be safe. i hold them tightly and sigh whispering in there ears.
"i love you guys and im gonna be home in a few days alright?" i look at them and they nod slowly
"but mommy what if-" lily starts and i shake my head
"its not gonna happen lily ok? im coming home if its the last thing i do" i interupt and they nod
"we love you mommy" they say in unison hugging me tightly i hug them back
"i love you too bye..." i say letting them go and they wave at me i stand up and kiss them both "im gonna miss u guys" i tell them and i can see they are both holding back tears they dont want me to leave.
"bye mommy we will miss u too" they say and i walk away to haymitch and he pulls me into a hug.
"take care of them haymitch" i whisper in his ear and he nods.
"you know i will sweetheart u just try to have fun alright?" i nod and he kisses my head "good bye sweetheart see you soon" i smile a little.
"bye haymitch see you soon and the kids" i say and kiss his cheek and hear the train pull up behind me and i start shaking and haymitch just holds me at arms length.
"its ok sweetheart its gonna be ok" he says and i nod and turn towards the train and pick up my bag and wave to everyone.
"bye i will be back soon" i say waving and i step on the train. i set my bag down in the living area and almost faint at what i see.
AUTHORS NOTE: hey guys its me and i am really starting to think no one is reading this....is my story that bad? if it is just tell me i promise it will get better in time! u just have to keep with it but maybe im making the chapters to short......anyways just comment if my story sucks and i will stop writing it or i will try to make it better........well good bye to next week hopefully.....
